Here's where you'll find updates on stuff going on in my life! I'm basically treating this section of the website like a blog, so if you wanna read me rambling about whatever I feel like talking about in the moment, keep on scrolling!
Sorry!! - Feb 7, 2024
「sowwy for leavign」
it looks like i kinda forgot about this place, so sorry !! didnt mean to leave yall abandoned here, i just hope you werent all scared or anything after i forgot to update my canary :P im ok!! im just a lot more busy with DJing, since thats actually been taking off into something way bigger than i ever thought it would be. if youre here before the change, im rebranding in about 10 days away from the tag @crowbar.enjoyer and over to @dystopia.grl just so that im not stealing crowbars tag anymore ^w^ im even working on graphics too !! i might at some point make the projects page a lil page for all my music related stuff to live just so that im not required to write a lil blurb about it, although i probably should anyways :P but yeah im here !! im alive !!! im doing great !!!! love you all <3
Trans Day of Rememberance - Nov 20, 2023
「rest in peace Eden, your memory will remain eternal. you will not be forgotten.」
November 20th is Transgender Day of Rememberance. A holiday I wish I never had to celebrate. Today, more than anyone, I remember my friend, Eden Knight. I remember the girl who never failed to make me smile, to bring light wherever she was. I remember the girl who spent hours teaching me about Bladee and Ecco2k. I remember a beautiful girl. I remember the girl who could outshine the sun. I remember the girl who could soar, if only allowed to spread her wings. Fly high Eden, may you reach the sun. You will not be forgotten.
the mountain and the quote at the top are reminders of the hours i spent ranting to her about celeste. god i was bad at that game. but i loved it. and i loved her company. i loved that she gave me the time. she was a friend, a true friend. i remember ranting to her about some inane aspect of some song i was listening to and she listened. she listened to my bullshit because she cared. she was a kind heart. she was a fucking angel. she was hilarious too. i still think of her as atlantean all because of that one fucking post she made. its funny, knowing her for years her humor kinda rubbed off on me. i guess a little part of her lives on inside me. the more i think about it the more i realize a little bit of her lives on in everyone she touched. everyone that was lucky enough to know her got to experience the joy that was knowing eden knight. im glad i was one of them. i just wish more people could have known her too.
Learning to DJ - Nov 18, 2023
「who the fuck is skinnyboymafia?」
I'm not good by any means but its definitely something I take a lot of pride in. It's just quite a bit of fun and lets me work with music in a far more physical way than producing or singing does. Conceptualizing and then actually creating doubles, transitions, and mixes gives a kind of live feedback that feels incredible once you're locked in. The attatched photo is actually one of me & my partner at the venue of my first ever live performance, just heavily edited for fun. Honestly, making these silly little album covers is what got me back into learning how to edit photos and use photoshop and whatnot. I think it's really funny how again and again, making music becomes an influential part of my life no matter what.
Homestuck - Nov 13, 2023
「read homestuck」
For those who don't know, I've been reading homestuck recently! I'm currently pretty early on, only partway through act 3, but so far I've really been enjoying it. From what I've heard from people who have finished it, it only gets better from here. I think what got me through the earlier parts which might have put some people off is having already read Problem Sleuth, and as such being used to the random bullshit that Hussie throws at you. It also helped that I was insanely in love with the person reading it to me. I also immediately understood why people said that Jade Harley was a lot like me, because the more it makes sense. Not gonna spoil too much in this little blog post / rant but if you know me and you know Jade you'll see it. It's really obvious in retrospect.
